Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
Luke 9:62
Our wonderful friend Jessica shared this verse with us. She encouraged us greatly with this command from Christ. I'm sure many can recognize with me saying that days can get hard. But in God's economy, there is much worth in continuing to "plow". We don't know what tomorrow holds, and honestly we hope it is something new. We have been praying and waiting for some while now. But even if this does not come to fruition, we must perservere. We must continue to make ourselves fit for the Kingdom of God. Each day is a refining process.
We have been on our knees lately - in thanksgiving, in petition, in surrender. It is the hardest place to remain, but from my short experience as a follower of Christ, it is the only place where we belong.
Sometimes I just want to complain and wallow in the difficulties of life. Sometimes it just seems to be too much to handle. But before I can even utter a complaint, I am reminded of how incredibly blessed we are. I know that sounds cliche, but it is the truth. Goodness gracious, why do I always want MORE? I KNOW that God is enough, but why does my heart often feel otherwise? I am ashamed to admit these shortcomings, but I feel that it is only through my constant confession of them that I will ever grow to overcome them.
If only He would return today. I want to see Him so badly. I want Him to make things right. Until He returns, I will strive to plow ... to make much of Him ... to know Him more ... to love Him as much as He loves me.
Your ears will surely listen to the cry of a penitent heart which lives the life of faith.
-St. Ausustine, Confessions