Due Date

  

Then the Lord said ... "Write this as a memorial in a book and recite it" ...
Exodus 17:14

When I started this "book", I prayed it would display the faithfulness of the one true God ... the God of the Bible. I've been reading this book to the girls at night, from the very beginning when I was pregnant with Hannah. I am often embarrassed at some of the trivial things I wrote about then ... perhaps age and experience does that to a person. Surely I am much wiser at 30 than I was at 24, ha! But I will say, this book has more than served the purpose I prayed it would have. Who could have authored the story that has unfolded? Not me. I have just recorded it. I am so thankful I have, so that I will never forget. I am so prone to forget.

Shelby had her IUI two days before me.  She had two mature follicles, and I had ... one. Shelby found out she was pregnant with ... one baby. I found out a few days later that I was pregnant with ... seven babies. Shelby will get to feed and dress and bathe and hear the coos of her sweet baby boy, Luke, any day now. I ... won't.

I am not bitter at Shelby. I prayed every day, for a year, for her and Evan to conceive! Now, they get to experience the joy of having their first child. I am not angry at God today, which is my due date. I am not sure what that even means though, because it is just the date that I was expected to deliver one baby by. I was not expected get anywhere close to today with seven. But today still means something to me, for some reason.

How is it that I have joy right now? How is it that I have peace? How is it that I have some measure of understanding? How is it that I am not jealous of Shelby? I mean, it makes no sense ... apart from something great, something real, something glorious.

Then Moses told Jethro all that the Lord had done ... how the Lord had delivered them ... and Jehtro rejoiced for all the good that the Lord had done ...

Exodus 18: 8-9

God's purpose, from the beginning, has been to glorify Himself. He is infinitely worthy of ALL praise! God's stated purpose for all of my life and all of your life is that all would know that:

The Lord is greater than all gods ...

Exodus 18:11

My greatest desire is that people ... you ... would come to know that the Lord is God. Please, read my little book, and then open the true one (insert "Bible" here). Come to know and love and worship the SUPREME instance of God's power, wisdom, and goodness: Jesus Christ.

I believe I will meet Mercy Carter, Evelyn Mary, Shiloh Grace, Sage Chandler, Issac Joseph, Aspen Piper, and Honor Anna in heaven. The day will come when I will not have to fight for joy. But that day is not here yet. Until then, there is work to do.

Every day may I, and you, by the grace and power and strength of a great and mighty God alone,

Repent, and believe!

-Jesus