I wonder why...
A new baby, school for two, cooking, and cleaning have left very little quiet time for this girl.
The few moments I get early in the morning are spent filling my tank with Jesus.
Its all good though. ALL good.
I also have thought about "ending" this "blog" with the announcement of Hayden's birth, ever since he was born. It's quite an end to quite a story, right?
I started this thing in 2009 to keep in touch with friends and family from home, because college and the work kept us away. Only God knew then what this platform would ultimately be used for. His providence is literally AWE-some.
I couldn't have asked for a better gift than this "online journal" (as I like to call it - not fond of the word "blog" for some reason - probably related to my own insecurity!) to document and share the story of messiah. I recently printed it out into a book. To see the events unfold in real-time so stirs my affections for God. I have found that our personal stories prove that what the Bible says is true. Our experiences testify to ultimate reality as it is revealed in Scripture (whether we want them to or not).
So, I think I am going to say goodbye here. Not that I really have "readers"... but I say goodbye for me. For closure. Perhaps for something new.
Over the last month or so, we have felt a new stirring from the Lord. We always want to go deeper with Him. But this time, its big. We feel less and less at home here. The safety and comfort of our current lives are stifling our joy more than ever. We are Christian hedonists. We fully believe that we are most satisfied when God is most glorified in us.
After 20 years of reading God's Word, I see two major themes: God's glory and my joy. The Lord has been so gracious to show me that they are in direct proportion to each other. The notion that I must be less happy to give God more glory is just not true. Unfortunately many people, Christians included, believe this. I used to believe it, to be honest. But discovering this truth has been SO liberating, SO empowering, SO...to use the word again...AWESOME.
So, Steve and I are asking God what He wants to do with us now. Maybe its starting a non-profit. Maybe its making ministry our full-time vocation. Maybe its becoming missionaries to an unreached people group. Maybe it's writing a book.
We are not sure ... yet.
But we are sure of this: we exist to glorify God BY enjoying Him as much as we possibly can. The more we can rid ourselves of our dependency on the things of this earth, the more of Him we will enjoy and therefore, the more He will be glorified in us - which is why we were made in the first place.
Asking Him to help us go further up and further in (as Aslan would say). Whatever it costs.
Love,
Lindsey and Steve
PS. We hope to share some love on our new work website: www.weakstrength.com
